Tarot reading

My life is fucked up, weird and chaotic. So weird that when on occasion I describe it to a close friend they often thing I’ve embellished the story for ‘dramatic’ effect. No, it’s just pretty fucked up!
I just about had enough today. It’s been 2 step’s forward and 3 back for the last several years. Any attempts to change it were always met with heavy resistance, physically and mentally.
I have a good friend who is an amazing Tarot reader but I wanted somebody who didn’t know me so well yet would give me a non-sugar coated but sympathetic reading. I had read Matt Laws fantastic book on the 22 major arcana (which is beautifully simple and direct book. I’m desperately waiting for the follow up) and had chatted with Matt a bit in the past. So I asked him if he could give me a reading and put me straight on how to break out of this downward spiral.
It’s 7 hours or so since I spoke to Matt and I’m still trying to take stock of what he said. The fact he picked up several things only I know, not just about my life but about the people around me and the people I surround myself with, amazed me. Partially I was in denial about it. The last 13 years of my life is based on it, yet I kind of just air brush over it.
The reading, Tarot and Natal chart, was in plain English. Sometimes I feel some reader have swallowed a dictionary and are trying just too hard to impress you with their mastery of the English language. There wasn’t much need to ask questions for clarification. I did fill in the blanks and explain the situation slightly better to Matt which allowed him to expand his reading and pull some amazing pieces of information out.
Now that its been pointed out to me, I can’t avoid it. This is like the bubble in the wallpaper, the one you kept telling yourself wasn’t really there but now that it has been pointed out to me, I can’t un-see it. At least he did offer some way to deal with the situation.
If you want a direct, uncomplicated, plain English reading. Somebody who won’t talk all airy fairy or new age’y with you I highly recommend Matt. I also highly recommend his book, 22 Paths of Imperfection.

Pieces of Eight

by Gordon White,

Amazon Kindle 2016

This is a book that will probably not get the attention it deserves because it is written by a self described Chaos magician.

I was first introduced to Chaos magic in 1990 by a young guy I met on a drilling rig in the North Sea. We would spend many a coffee break and evening discussing the occult. This was in the day’s before we had satellite TV and decent telephone’s. The only form’s of communication were ship to shore radio telephone via Montrose 2182 or via snail mail sent to Sedco Forex’s Aberdeen office.

I have a bad habit of surrounding myself and building a life around people who run contrary to what I want. A history of trying to fit into a pigeon hole that society has pre-determined for me. The drug addled teenager and the wannabe outlaw biker phases were already behind me. This was going to be the flowering of my occult phase which had started in my early teens. Not to be unfortunately. All too soon I succumbed to the pressure from my boss’s, the alcoholic Dundonion AA and the equally obnoxious failed Premier league footballer PS. So I slotted myself into a culturally suitable pigeon hole. Next came many years of happily and unhappily married life, followed by life as the globe trotting rig pig with a pocket full of cash and a hard-on in his pants. Before long that gave way to a life of an expatriate and then back to married domestication. It was only in mid-life that I started to take control of the forces around me and understand who I really was. Sadly 25 good years lost, 25 years of potential study lost, 25 years of development lost.

Maybe… Possibly the experiences of the previous 25 years were probably necessary to produce who I am today, no short cut was available. As Gordon say’s in the book The pirates of the classical age were not only necessary but also improved the British navy and speeded up its development and the development of the British Empire. It also quickened the independence of many Caribbean nations.

The fact that this book in just a few short hours of reading has evoked such reactions and reminiscence’s in me is testament to the power in Gordon’s words.

By definition a chaos magician is somebody who through practical experimentation dismisses that which does not work and adopts that which does. This book takes me back all those years to the long discussions I had with a now unknown person, name, address, telephone numbers long since forgotten and now would be utterly useless.

At this point I’ve said precious little about the book. It’s a collection of thought provoking essays that will stimulate your mind into further explorations on the subject’s. Fifteen essays that occupy about 2 thirds of the book followed by section with some practical exercises and the last few pages with an interesting further reading/ study list.

Whether you are biased against chaos magic or not will determine if you read this book. I hope that this book is the start of the re-imagining of chaos magic that Gordon envisions. That changes the perception of chaos magicians from snot nosed undisciplined kids (young and old) into disciplined, practical, experimental magicians, independent of snotty noses or age.

I’ll leave this review here with a couple of quotes from the book…

“Terence McKenna once famously said that science asks “Give us one free miracle and we’ll explain the rest.” That miracle is the instantaneous arrival of all the laws of nature and all the matter and energy in the universe, appearing out of nowhere at the moment of the Big Bang, before going on to expanding uneven and unexplained ways. Quite the miracle. Sounds like magic. Bad magic.”

“The very best magicians are scavengers of the useful and banishers of the useless.”

I hope this book fires you up like it has done me.